Winter Lace

Ten On Ten

February 2015

Say yes

joy

sneaking up

arresting us

stopping us in our tracks

and we

skidding, falling, tripping all over

ourselves

because

of one magic moment saying yes

to really see

stunning beauty

and kindness and mystery

all wrapped up

in the daily and monotony

and grind

because 

life can be purely full of it

this joy

to be chased

and breathed in

and lived full

if we say yes

Longing to fly

 

sometimes

I feel like a caged bird

longing for freedom

to fly

expectations falling hard

why I need grace

not to do whatever I want
to live flippant in sin

but only because

my heart so full

of the not

just never enough

and shame

burrowing its head
into my soul

so flawed

and imperfect

and hovering behind a wall
of unsuccessful attempts

and it exhausts

until this vulnerability

catching my breath
and turning me around
to see

Jesus

calming my fears
with His presence
restoring my broken
with His grace
and breaking my heart
with His love

and then

having permission
to be both flawed and loved

freed

to be myself

no longer needing

to fly